Many of you know that we have been expecting a little girl to arrive the week of February 14. Last Thursday at a routine pre-natal exam our midwife requested that we schedule an ultrasound for Monday to make sure that our baby wasn’t breech. At almost 39 weeks this wasn’t news we wanted to hear, and it was challenging this last weekend not to worry. But oh, how faithful and patient our God is with us even when His children struggle to have the right biblical response to circumstances that are out of their control. He delights in shaping those circumstances to teach us, to mold us, and to comfort us if we’ll let Him. And Sunday, at our church, He did just that.
During Sunday school the Lord showered us with blessings. First the ladies of our sending church gave us a shower providing us with beautiful little girl clothes, diapers, and even a double stroller. What a reminder that our heavenly Father is our provider.
And then the ladies’ Sunday school message was taken from Job and illustrated by a personal testimony of a dear woman in our assembly who has grown to know and love the Lord in a very special way because of much suffering in her life. And then the song selection in the morning worship service was filled with selections like Ron Hamilton’s Rejoice in the Lord, and It is Well with my Soul, themed on trusting God when we don’t necessarily understand His plans. How these songs ministered to our hearts reminding us that we can trust the goodness and wise sovereignty of our God. And then our pastor preached a message out of 1st Peter entitled Enjoy Your Suffering. The title says it all.
As we left the church service, Joshua and I looked at each other and both had the same thought. We were pretty sure that the Lord was preparing us to hear news that we wouldn’t choose for ourselves the next day at our ultrasound appointment.
And we were right.
The ultrasound showed that our little girl is in a very strange position that less than 3% of babies choose. In all his years of obstetrics, my dad’s only seen one baby in a similar position, but that baby was vertex not breech/oblique so even his position wasn’t quite as strange as what our daughter’s in. The doctor we saw Monday also said that this was the strangest positioning he has ever seen. And my dad, the OB, and our midwife all agree that attempting a version would be potentially dangerous for our baby. There was also the news that her stomach was measuring funny. The doctor told us that this could indicate that something is wrong, but hopefully her stomach is measuring extra small not because it actually is, but because of her really odd positioning interfering with a good measurement.
The OB said there’s still a 2% chance that she might turn, and they’ll check before doing the surgery, but there’s probably a physical reason why she’s stuck like this. She’s practically doing a back-bend inside of me. She’s sort of a cock-eyed breech, but her head and shoulders are tipped back so she’s looking up toward my face. I don’t think that there is even a name for the contortion that she has managed to get herself into. Maybe she has a future career as a circus performer or a gymnast.
After getting this news, we decided to follow the advice of our medical team, and we scheduled a C-section for this Thursday at 9:00 AM.
The Lord has given Joshua and I much peace about the upcoming C-section and has repeatedly brought phrases from Psalm 139 to my mind.
Under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, David wrote:
For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.
It’s so comforting to know that the Lord shapes us in our mother’s wombs. his hand is on my daughter even in this extremely uncomfortable and dangerous choice of positioning. He could turn her if He chose to, but for some good reason that I may or may not ever understand instead He’s choosing to shape her little life at an odd angle.
As we approach Thursday morning, we are praising the Lord for modern medicine and for His hand of protection thus far on me and on our daughter, but we do have some prayer requests that we are taking to Him. Please join us in praying that the c-section will go well and that we’ll have no complications so that I’ll be a future candidate for VBAC. Because of the baby’s positioning the OB doctor said that it’s a real possibility that he may have to do a vertical cut to remove the baby safely. If he does have to do this, then VBAC won’t be a future option.
Thank you all for your prayers and do praise the Lord with us for His goodness to us.